… is quite an unusual condition, I think. Most people give a start when they hear their voice recorded back. The answerphone message you left on your home phone, the recorded meeting, the video on holiday. It sounds different – higher, lower, posher, weedier, growlier, than we thought because we naturally hear ourselves not through the air but through our flesh and bones, which transmit sound in a different, denser, way.
I have been sharing the voice parts for our songs as MIDI files for several years. I like MIDI because it’s small, and simple, and impersonal. It is a scientifically accurate representation of the pitch and rhythm of a part, so singers have to join in to give it meaning musically as well as adding the words. That has merit as a teaching tool.
However, Safari stopped supporting MIDI files about two upgrades ago, so anyone with an Apple device could not hear the files without some jiggery-pokery that, let’s face it, was too fiddly to bother with. For months I have known that I will have to record actual recordings – of my own voice – if they are going to be accessible to all the choir members.
I am not a performer. Some musicians are driven by a need to perform, and some are not. I have never wanted to be on TV or at the Albert Hall. I love getting lost in Chopin piano pieces all on my own. I love singing with other people but an audience makes it worse, not better. What gives me more of a buzz than anything is helping other people discover their own musicality and produce amazing sounds.
I privately record all the parts for every song I teach to choir, to feel how they go together and find out the danger points. But now I have to share them with other people! Teaching tracks for other people to learn from should be spot on for pitch and rhythm, but I should also be breathing in the right places and phrasing it exactly as I want it sung, as well as it having a decent tone and the right vowel sounds. It takes a lot longer than exporting a MIDI file from my score-writing software and is much more nerve-wracking. I have to share soon for them to be any use, so I cannot keep on listening and correcting.
There are now multiple instances of my voice on this website, which I offer up to you as good enough. Good enough to help you learn the parts and sing them with conviction – but not perfect, and not the real thing, which won’t exist until the choir sings together in live harmony.


I’ve spent a very enjoyable couple of days collating all the responses to a survey about the songs we have sung in choir. We got 21 responses, which is also the average attendance at choir rehearsals, so that is very encouraging. It’s brilliant when people care enough to share their opinions with you.
This is a funny little half-term for choirs. I know some people come back to rehearsals and Boom! it’s straight into the Coventry Carol and Masters in this Hall. Christmas is such a huge singing festival that it can take over your whole post-summer life – but I don’t really like starting too early. I try to make sure we have something to work towards in October, then we can dive into Wassailing and rest-you-merry wholeheartedly till the end of the year.




